Einsamer Kampf zur Disziplin

Auf dem Weg zur Abschlussarbeit treffe ich nicht sehr viele Leute. Ich bin der einzige regelmäßige Besucher in meiner Bibliothek. Nur eine andere Frau schreibt hier ihre Abschlussarbeit. Da entsteht wenig Kampfgeist, wenig Atmosphäre die mir hilft mich zu konzentrieren und mal an die Arbeit zu gehen.

Das ist ein recht langer Eintrag, aber im vorletzten Absatz hätte ich gerne deine Hilfe!

Fear & Lead

FEAR and LEAD is what I mostly encountered in my head during the last 3 weeks. After I finished the first long part of the MA I was just not in the mood to just go on and do my dissertation.

Not that I didn’t want to, but to get myself going and motivated to do another round of reading-note taking-writing was just too much.

What also drained me was the emotional non-supportiveness of the courseleader and that a good friend of mine here failed the first part of the course and will not be continuing.

Today, my motivation was a little higher than yesterday, but this is no state to continue in! Something has to change. The fear and the lead has to give way to motivation, easyness and love for what I do.

I knew what had to happen, but any effort I took didn’t bring fruit, so nothing happened.

Now I ran into the director of research and he advised me to ask one of the tutors that previously has helped me get on with the first batch of essays. I talked to him about a book that is supposed to help students write their thesis and he didn’t have it, but immediately agreed to buy it for me, so I could borrow it.

Awesome! Praise God. This help and brotherly love, as I want to call it, mixed with the authority of a tutor really helped me! That is part of what I would like to call divine blessing!

Over and out, I’ve got to read something now!